毛的窝

falling over lil' boys:)

2011-03-10T10:27:00.002+08:00

i can't thank God enough for the miracle,i don't deserve it at all.but through grace,it was given to me.praise God for the results:)
but the uni/course applications are such a hassle gahhhh:S
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jie came to s'pore but didn't really had time to bring her around yet.dad has been doing the tour-guiding..haha.hope to re-bond/break ice with her after all these years haha.
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haven't blogged for so long,i'm so busyyy:S arghhhh~
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oh save me i'm totally falling over lil' cute cheeky boys in schoolllllll ahhhh.and small eyed boys toooo~~~
seeing elena and ppl having their last 2 days in school makes me think of my own last days when they come round...how i'll miss my kidsT.T
now i understand why teachers show favouritism,it's really not their fault,it's just that some kids are seriously soooooooo likeable u can't help loving them and feel like bringing them home..haha even if they might be very naughty,not cooperative in class etc,you just can't bring urself to scold them coz they are aww soooo cute!~~
school hol's coming,i'm gonna miss my favs!ahhh i think i'm crazy..
looking forward to the p4 camp!

shine at beacon:)

2011-01-29T13:22:00.003+08:00

work has been veryvery draining,little vampires sucking away all my energy.
and lotsa saikang by the other teachers..
little monsters 2/8 driving me crazy~
always enjoy going into 2/1,little angels:))
and spending time talking and playing with little darlings from 1/3 even when i've no recess duty, just love seeing them and such innocent, genuine happiness when they see me.
the little things they do like little rachael feeding me her biscuit,zhi hao blow kiss at me,jingjie giving me gummy and force me to eat immediately,anthea snuggling up against me on the canteen bench,chunjia telling me about her japan trip in dec,ignatius/dingzhang proudly trying to show off to me how good their math are,kishan calling me pretty jiejie,even ryan accidentally 喷-ing his half chewed egg tart on my face while talking to me too excitedly and completely grossing me out....all the small but thoughtful things they do and the seemingly insignificant things they talked about ever so excitedly are things i wanna remember from this work experience,things i wanna soak myself in,coz in them,i see pure and genuine human hearts;hearts of little children,no wonder even God says,unless you become like one of those [little children],you'll not enter my kingdom.
even though when i go to the canteen now,i'll be "discovered" by the 3/4 kids within 5secs and after which i can forget about having a peaceful lunch...i really thank God for these kids' er..fondness of me(:S?) which i can't understand coz i don't even teach them,i just sit-in their math class occassionally...i guess they see in me more of a friend or dajiejie intead of a teacher which could be why they love to suddenly jump out from nowhere and scare me from the back,chase me around the canteen,clinch on to my hands so tight i can't even open my wallet to buy food,and hugging me real tight before going away to line up when recess ends....which is kind of overwhelming coz they don't do it one by one but as a group...like jellyfish wrapping arounds me..but somehow it just warms my heart every time.
i'm so glad kierol's not crying every morning now when coming to school and the bright sunshine smile she puts on whenever she sees me:) i can't describe it but she has such beautiful and sweet smiles,a smile that can light up the darkest corner of the world,a smile that can melt the "stone-est" heart,i pray that she'll keep smiling.
每天的工作虽然很辛苦，但是小朋友们的笑脸和拥护是我每天起床的动力；尽管2/8真的很坏，尽管声名狼藉的princeton总是叫我Miss Jaywalk,可是当odelia送我一张她画的画，erika送我一张她为什么喜欢我的小字条，看起来坏坏的jetrickson真心的跟我说一声byebye Miss J 的时候，心就化了。。
I feel that "bad" kids like princeton are actually good at heart,they behave the way they are probably due to some unspoken reason,i see a good boy in him,which makes me really wanna reach out to kids like him;i might not be powerful enough to change him,no;but i'm hoping that the least i can do,is to help him see and understand why he's behaving the way he is..and how he can change for the better,but the choice is his,i'm not a magician,i'm not a god,i can't MAKE it change.
most of them will forget me soon after i leave,after all they are just kids aged 7-10...but i'm hoping that for some of them,even after they grow older,they'd remember that once upon a time there was a teacher who reached out,who made a difference.i don't even care whether they remember my face or name,i just hope that i can teach them somethings that will last them for a long time,things out of the classroom,things about life,about treating people.i believe teaching is not just about filling students with knowledge but equally importantly,shaping their characters.
i guess despite everything,when i look back at my experience thusfar,i see more of rainbows and sunshine:))

20110101

2011-01-01T00:37:00.002+08:00

2010年我想记住的名字，也是2011年我想继续爱着的人们：
(in no particular order of preference)
-mao
-chou
-xinyan
-liying
-liuchang
-kaini
-qianyi (i noe you won't ever see this but i really really really miss you...)
-wenhao
-yufan
-chi
-lien
-shilei
-joey
-hien
-stella
-bojia
-lydia
-jialer
-charis
-giselle
-charming
-cheong
-lingzhuo
-yinglu
-mrs yap
-mr leong
-uncle david
-pastor

也许有些人永远也不会看到这些，
但是我还是要说，
真的很谢谢你们；
因为有你们，
我的2010年不一样；
因为有你们，
我会微笑着回味2010。

2010年永远地过去了，
也许多年后我会被遗忘，
但是你们留给我的回忆，
永远都在；
在我心里，
将永远留着属于你们的位置。

this is the 365th post

2010-12-15T12:42:00.005+08:00

this is the 365th post since the very first one on july 13 2006,it calls for something special..hmm haha.
looking back at the posts from more than 4 years ago, i guess i've grown alot.maybe i still give people the impression of being childish,reliant,incompetent,panicky etc,but i've indeed er.. become more mature!haha..
i'm so glad i kept this blog alive even after so long,never expect it to last.it's like a record of my journey,from sec2 till now.it reminds me of the little blessings along the way that brings a smile when hopes seem frail;and also look back at all the anger,frustration,sadness and be able to shrug off all of them and say,i've made it through all that,nothing stands in my way and nothing's gonna stop me.
i love looking back at the past,coz it always shows me so clearly of God's love and grace in my life.
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outing with dancemates yesterday,i don't know how many more times we can gather again like that,but a scene like this,i just wanna replay it again and again.and again.

I found a way to let you in
but i never really had a doubt
standing in the light of your halo
i got my angel now

everywhere i'm looking now
i'm surrounded by your embrace
baby i can see your halo
you know you're my saving grace

you're everything i need and more
it's written all over your face
baby i can feel your halo
pray it won't fade away

tuesdays with morrie

2010-12-12T22:53:00.004+08:00

Many thoughts after reading Tuesdays with Morrie. Love the book. Had this lump in my throat though it’s supposed to be a sweet story with a happy ending. Guess it’s coz it really spoke to me..

“Everyone knows that they’re going to die, but nobody believes it.” We all know how life should be lived, how we should never take anything for granted, but how many people actually live that way; how many people actually treasured what they have before it was too late. Everyone knows that they’re going to die, but nobody thought the day would come; or else life would have been lived very differently from what it is now, and the world would have been so different.

“Learn to give love and let love in”, I guess the problem with people today is not just many are so selfish and self-centered that they could care less about other, it is also that they didn’t want to accept love from other; love and goodness are always viewed as the masks of completely different motives, perhaps to benefit the self at the expense of others; and people thinks that when they accept love from others, they have to do something in return; but that’s not love, love is unconditional. “Only an open heart will allow you to float equally between everyone”. 心与心的交流，很难吗？

“Detaching oneself, it doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it”. “Spiritual security” is what I lack. “If you hold back on the emotions—if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them—you can never get to being detached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that love entails.” I guess i’m just too afraid of losing something..that I’m worrying all the time and i’ll never really get to enjoy and appreciate it fully. “I want to know what’s happening, accept it, get to a peaceful place, and let go”, “Don’t let go too soon, but don’t hang on too long.” will I ever learn..?

“Invest in the human family. Invest in people. Build a little community of those you love and who love you”.

“Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone.” And love is also how you keep someone alive, even after they are gone. “As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on—in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.” Touching the hearts of people..

“Love is when you are as concerned about someone else’s situation as you are about your own.” I can’t say I’m expert at it already, but I dare say, I’m getting there..hahahaha

“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” My favourite quote from the book. Indeed, love transcends all beings, time and space.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

2010-11-22T17:43:00.002+08:00

一个普通朋友见了你点头微笑,一个真正朋友见了你没有问候；

一个普通朋友在你没有事的时候常来找你,一个真正朋友在你有事时就来找你；

一个普通朋友在喝酒时会说,你不喝完这杯就不是朋友,一个真正朋友在喝酒时会说,别喝太多了；

一个普通朋友从来不会看到你哭，一个真正朋友却有双肩让你湿尽；

一个普通朋友能陪你喝完一瓶烈酒，一个真正朋友能陪你长谈一个黑夜；

一个普通朋友几年不见就感到陌生，一个真正朋友十年不见却更感亲切；

一个普通朋友的电话写在电话簿上都记不住，一个真正朋友的电话没有写下来却总记得一清二楚；

一个普通朋友总爱对你说，怎么还没找到一个女朋友啊，一个真正朋友却会悄悄对你说，明天我带你去认识一个新朋友；

一个普通朋友听了你唱的歌会掌声说真好听，一个真正朋友听了你唱的歌会说拜托下次别在折磨人了！；

一个普通朋友在春风得意时看不到你，一个真正朋友在你落魂失意时来看你；

一个普通朋友送烟给你抽，一个真正朋友却拿你烟去送人抽；

一个普通朋友常会对你说，有事尽管找我，一个真正朋友常会对你说，没事别来烦我；

一个普通朋友在你有事找他时却总说刚好没空，一个真正朋友在你有事时打电话来问你；

一个普通朋友能和你一起分享，一个真正朋友能和你分享痛苦；

一个普通朋友爱和你说他的成功往事，一个真正朋友爱和你说他的不如意和挫折失败；

一个普通朋友在和你吵架后就成了仇敌，一个真正朋友在和你吵架后依然是朋友；

一个普通朋友让你近墨者黑，一个真正朋友让你知道近墨者会黑。

troubled

2010-11-12T21:47:00.001+08:00

该来的来，该去的去，我明白，我了解，我接受，就这样。

最后的战役

2010-11-08T19:49:00.009+08:00

最后的战役终于来临，但这不是世界末日；

就算龙卷风侵袭，我也不会退后，因为只有忍者才会胜利。

我会咬紧牙关，一路向北，相信蓝色风暴后就是晴天，

我会看到属于我的彩虹；

以父之名，阿门

当我开始想念

2010-10-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

思念
是一种幸福的忧伤
是一种甜蜜的惆怅
是一种温馨的期盼

人越大，越难过。。

2010-10-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

i don't know what's my problem,seriously.
i wish i can use my brain on better things..

也许是害怕，
也许是感触太深，
也许是自己的软弱。

也许我不会跟任何人说，
不是我不想说，
而是有些东西真的没办法放进语言和文字，
是它们的局限吗？
还是人的内心世界真的深不可测？

也许我是个悲观主义者，
我也会作梦，
但真正相信的梦。。
也许不多。

希望越大失望越大，
所以我更喜欢相信最坏的，
因为这样我只会得到惊喜的。

害怕有一天，
当我醒过来，
发现我所熟悉的一切已不复存在，
被遗忘了也好，
被抛弃了也好；
转身看到的是空荡荡的一片，
没有一个人。。

想相信，
可是现实确是如此残酷，
害怕，害怕这是最后一次。。
难道就这么难吗？
就算我很努力也没用吗？
如果以后。。。

人说，只要周围的人开心、幸福就好，
我不知道我是否能达到那个境界。

或许我没那么大本事，
可能是我太贪心。。
老天对我已经很仁慈，
但人终归是人，
永远没有足够的时候。。

我真的好害怕...天～～～～

谁需要谁
白云和蓝天
依偎才有美好的画面
大风一吹离的并不远
下次见面以前都记得那感觉

愚かな

2010-10-06T20:46:00.002+08:00

人们总是说，不用跟人家比，重要的是超越自我。what rubbish!who cares how much you improved,even if you improved from U to B,so?true enough you may have 超越了自己,but you are still not the A!still far from the best,nobody's gonna look at you.who cares if you improved by 5 grades?they are not going to compare with how you did last time,they only care about now.or maybe you screwed up the last interview,like you are so nervous you totally peed in ur pants,and then you improved and did well for another interview,you didn't show your nervousness except with only a few stammers,nobody would disagree that you didn't improve,in fact you performed exceptionally well compared to previously.but so??not like the interviewers are gonna check out on your previous experiences and commpare???you are just no match with those who show real confidence,too bad.
yeahyeah we shouldn't care about what others think,but that's plain idealistic,we live in a pragmatic world,if you are not the best,you get eliminated,simple as that.
competing with yourself is for those at the top,they have to keep 超越 themselves to be the best of the best;but not for those at the bottom.maybe it's time to change the saying,compete with others；人比人，比死人,that's too bad.
what a gross world indeed.

有种不舍的感觉

2010-09-24T23:10:00.003+08:00

今年夏天
是个充满希望的季节，
我们就要说再见，
不知何时再相见，
但相处的画面，
不停重复上映在眼前。
今年夏天
有种令人不舍的感觉，
徘徊在你我之间，
抹去彼此留下的泪水，
重新展开笑颜，
各自踏上锦绣的明天

2010-09-17T11:03:00.004+08:00

[koped]

真的只是有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。
真的只是有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
真的只是有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
真的只是有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
真的只是有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
真的只是有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
真的只是有时候，希望时间为自己停下，就这样和喜欢的人地老天荒。
真的只是有时候，在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
真的只是有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
真的只是有时候，夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。
真的只是有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
真的只是有时候，觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
真的只是有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次。
真的只是有时候，自己的梦想很多，却力不从心。
真的只是有时候，常常找不到事情，无聊的无所适从。
真的只是有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢了。
真的只是有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
真的只是有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
真的只是有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
真的只是有时候，听到一首老歌，就突然想起一个人。
真的只是有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
真的只是有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
真的只是有时候，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。
真的只是有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，自己却无能为力。

树

2010-09-11T14:23:00.008+08:00

如果有来生，要做一棵树，站成永恒，没有悲欢的姿势。

一半在尘土里安详，一半在风里飞扬，一半洒落阴凉，一半沐浴阳光。

非常沉默非常骄傲，从不依靠从不寻找。

God says

2010-09-05T21:01:00.002+08:00

“Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?”

indeed,God gives us opportunities to learn..

2010-09-05T14:31:00.002+08:00

看成败，人生豪迈，
只不过是从头再来；
他也许失去了一切，
钱财，事业，荣耀，威风，
但他没有失去希望与爱；
这种精神，
敬佩呵～

心若在，梦就在

lost memo~

2010-09-01T14:41:00.004+08:00

the archives are like 百宝箱,lost and forgotten memories revived:)

and i found something else from the archive...
thursday, june 12, 2008;
i was touched by my own words..HAHA.
and this song just seems so appropriate here..

it is time

2010-09-01T14:18:00.006+08:00

was randomly looking through some of my archives(yeah i noe i'm crazy to be doing such things at this time)...and i found this...

"Monday, June 02, 2008

I've officially turned into a MUGGER!ohman...
the evidence?i don't blog so much anymore,i don't use com so much anymore,i don't chat on msn so much anymore,i don't watch TV anymore,i revise for physics block test,i finished chinese hol homework,i do math like crazy for many consecutive days and i've even got a math tutor...==
wow i'm really a mugger...
well it might not be a bad thing.in fact i hope the mugger spirit will last till EOY!!i really really need to be a super mugger to pass!!!!YES!i shall perservere!!can do it!!i'm happy being a mugger:)
cca's taking up sooooo much time...it's disrupting my mugging schedule.but never,i shall improve on my hou4 tu3 so will have nice ti1 hou4 tui3 for chun1 dao4!yay!now i have a target for everything,all i need to do is to work towards them!!sounds easy!...and extremely optimistic..
planning outing with qiujiejie!!!lalalalala!!!shall force her to go Kbox with us:)))so exciting!!!can't wait!!!
i'm soooo hungry...starving...mum and dad are out shopping!no one to cook==
mao's coming back on fri:)yay...presents:)))...of cuz i don't juz look forward to the presents..HAHA
it's going to be an extremely busy week...with cca like everyday from tmr onwards...wow,i'm really gonna lose lots of fats:)!expect to see a very slim jieyi when school reopens!!HAHHA...but sadly that's the ideal situation and not everything in reality is ideal...the more i exercise,the more i eat..zzzzz
oh i got new specs!it's purple!wenjing i allow u to be jealous of me:))it's my most ex pair!!somemore i paid for it!!!!xin1 tong4!!!!hope this one will last...and my degrees pls don't increase anymore!!!i'm so old already!!should stop increasing!!!why can't you be like my height?which didn't increase for even ONE nanometer for the past FOUR years==!!!!
ok i think i should go do some work...enough of slacking...muggers don't slack."

haiz,mugging spirit,PLEASE COME BACK TO ME BABE~~

2010-08-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

"Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. ... They say that nothing lasts forever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after we're gone."
— Cecelia Ahern (PS, I Love You)

然后呢？

2010-08-26T22:10:00.003+08:00

exactly one week to the first paper of prelims,
and i don't know what i'm feeling..
stressed?scared?or nothingO:

but i know i'm being engulfed by this overwhelming emotions,
again.
knew that it'd be here sooner or later..
and just like the millions of times i've endured it in the past,
i'm gonna have to face it again..

people say that the more you experience something,
the more you'll learn and get use to it.
but somethings i've never been able to understand,
or learnt to accept;
guess i never will or want to;

i'm living in my self-deceiving world..
a perfect world that i'm trying to create for myself,
but life has it that i'll never succeed,
or even come close to that;
coz life is life.
it's okay though,
i'll never stop trying,

sounds stupid i know;

but along the way,

i've found some pretty and special stones among the sands,

and sure i know i can't hold on to 'em forever;

but what is forever anyway?

perhaps i'll slowly learn,

but for now,

我只想用全心去体会一切

然后呢？

下雨天

2010-08-23T21:12:00.001+08:00

喜欢下雨天，
这样的天，
总会让我想很多...
有好有坏吧～

原来幸福可以如此简单

2010-08-20T22:59:00.003+08:00

一个人走在街头，
雨点滴答滴答地落在脸颊，
心里突然涌出一股暖流，
其实我很幸福呢，
不是么？:)

growing up

2010-08-17T21:54:00.002+08:00

i will grow up,
i will grow out of it,
i will.
and it'll be okay

闭上眼睛许个愿

2010-08-11T17:34:00.006+08:00

"Age is whatever you think it is. You are as old as you think you are."
i likeeee that!:)
but it's kind of scary to think that i've been in existence on this earth for 20 long years!

looking back..i probably have little regrets,
my life couldn't possibly be the same without the people in it.
i may not be the most popular or most pampered,
but i'm a lucky girl indeed.
i love the people around me,
each and every one of you are special to me,
you are irreplaceable.
wanna thank God for the past 19 years of my life,
for blessing me with lovely people,
who walked me through all of life's ups and downs.

"when somebody loved me, everything was beautiful;
every hour we spent together lives within my heart.
...
through the summer and the fall,
we had each other that was all,
...
like it was meant to be"

being 20,
it's the beginning of another journey,
and i start to fear now and then,
that everything will change,
nothing will stay the same
coz everything and everyone have to move on;
you can stop in your track,
but the earth spins on.
i just wanna hold on to things
a little while longer,
before they slip away,
through my fingers.

whatever it'll be,
i hope you'll be near:3

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想想挺吓人的，
转眼间20年就这样过去了，
人生又能有几个20年呢？
活过了生命的四分之一，
我都做了什么？

20年，
不长也不短；
我是幸运的，
在20年的时间里，
体验了两个不同国家、城市、文化。
在两种似乎一样，但又截然不同的环境下成长，
或许我所经历的、学到的比别人更多。

生命的第一个10年，
在家人的呵护下，
常被人说是温室里的花朵；
那时的生活，
是无忧无虑的满足，
是傻傻的快乐。

生命的第二个10年，
是酸甜苦辣咸都无法诠释的，
是和妈妈的相依为命；
一路走来的磕磕碰碰，
没有第三个人会理解。
那时的生活，
是石缝中渴望阳光的小草；
是无数次跌倒后，又咬紧牙关爬起来的坚强；
是告诉那些瞧不起外国人的人，中国人的实力，我会证明给你看；
是告诉那些不看好我们的人，你们错了；
是经过无数次考验后，笑着对自己说，原来我可以。

当初如果没有选择这条路，
一切都会很不一样；
挺着与家人分隔的痛苦，
我不后悔，
因为我拥有了另一群“家人”；
所以我比别人更幸福。

也许
应该笑着迎接生命的第三个10年；
这一次，
我又会飘去何方？

faithful

2010-08-10T18:40:00.005+08:00

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what i long for

When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And i want you more than i want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
I still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
So i whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge,
knowing you're the only one who knows me
You know me

Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want

faith is the substance of things hoped for,

the evidence of things not seen,

thus when we feel all alone,

yet still hang on to the promise that He will never leave us,

we are strengthened in our faith.

abcde_ you lizard

2010-08-08T21:12:00.005+08:00

a stupid lizard..or some stupid lizards just shitted on my pencil case!!and i said "some" coz it's really quite an amount for one..and it's totally fresh i.e not hardened + it's like watery watery kind,even beside the main pile,there's another blob of water..wle.and even aft i wipe it off,it still stink like omg==..ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. and the worse thing is,i can wipe off the shit coz i can see it,but what about all the places the lizard crawl on that didn't leave any trails?..ewwwww

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i should stop waking up at 2pm everyday...omg..this is seriously unproductive==, shouldn't waste away my holiday like that!
and i don't wanna do chem!wanna do math==.chem is just plain gross..

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sogurt with dancers(minus qiu,nat and sheng:( ) after nat day celebration is <3333!

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mass convo with dajie and laosan is :))))))!and with the addition of jiefu!hope he can really become our jiefu!haha.catching up with 姐妹们<333

really hope dajie can come to work in s'pore!..

never let hope die

2010-07-24T22:11:00.003+08:00

we must accept finite disappointment,but never lose infinite hope. - Martin Luther King
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i just wanna thank God for everthing,in particular my results.and special mention to csc.
God works miracles,believe it.coz it's real.
i had only 1 day to study for csc,i was at my wit's end.
all my plans,my own agendas,i have to let go.
coz God has other things in mind.
so i was sick 1 whole week before csc essay paper,
God only left me with one day,to do whatever i could,
but he didn't leave me to do it alone,on my own!NO.
coz i had no other choice,i surrendered.fully.
i didn't have complete peace within when i went for the paper,
i didn't have peace when i wait for the results to come out.
but when i did see the results finally,
i know my God was with me,all along.
he never left me,not even for 1 single second.
when i was sick and worrying,
when i was frantically trying to do whatever i can in that one day,
God's with me and he led me.
i wouldn't have done it on my own,
with my own strength.NEVER.
it is only possible through him,
as it says,"i can do everything through him who gives me strength";
with him all things are possible;
for God is Jehovah Ezer, the Lord our helper;
Jehovah Jireh,the Lord our provider;
El Roi, the God who sees, through all our troubles and sufferings.
God is an awesome God!

just have faith and continue to walk with him:)
seek ye first the kingdom of God,and all these things will be added unto you. Matthew 6:33

it's never too late to come back to God,the loving Father.He's waiting,for you.
seek him today!

jie's wedding!

2010-07-22T20:32:00.008+08:00

Jie's wedding!:D:D

beautiful bride..hehehe:)

Jiefu is spasss~

love the backgroud of the hall!supersuper pretty!

命中注定我爱你

2010-07-20T18:19:00.004+08:00

有些故事感人肺腑，
有些故事让人反省。

“如果你爱他是命中注定的话，
那么我爱你也是命中注定的。”

一段感情的深浅，
不在于时间的长短。
有些感情时间不长
但却刻骨铭心。

“那天后，我没有再见过你，
但每次遇见这样的大雨，
我就会想起你，
笑着说：‘诶，很高兴认识你’”

可是，有些事
过去了就过去了。。
也许应该学会什么时候放手，
这样对身边的人才公平。

毕竟，人活在现在，
最重要的，还是珍惜身边现在的人，
也许只有这样，当他们有一天也离去的时候，
才不会留下太多遗憾吧？

有人说缘分是深秋的两片落叶，
偶尔碰撞一下，
却又各分东西。

就算会被人误会，
就算会被人讨厌，
就算会被人怀疑真心，
但还是要用全心全意去爱身边的每一个人！嗯！

the typical average

2010-07-16T20:55:00.007+08:00

yay chem improved tho it's still a fail..haha.
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went for flu jab ytd..i love injections..damn shuang now..hahah kay i'm 自虐狂～
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went back to nanyang before csc yesterday!:D:D:D
super love the $1 yogurt ice cream!!yummmmyy!!if hc has that,i'll eat it everyday.
missed nanyang ttm...and all the juniors are like super innocent looking..
and ytd was DSA for band,strings,co and dance too!a lot parents were accompanying their daughters..with intrument in hand and looking hopeful/nervous.seeing them make me feel so fortunate,it's like everyone's fighting to get into ny,like it's such a great place and somehow they feel that if their daughters get into ny,they'll have nothing to worry about anymore.
i still remember vividly the first time we passed by ny only a short period after we came to s'pore,we thought the school was beautiful and were told that it's one of the best in s'pore.mama said,ah how nice it would be if you could study here someday...and thank God i actually got in despite being in a pri sch like that..hahaha
and the next 4 years in nanyang were probably the most fulfilling and happy days i had in my school life in s'pore..i grew and learnt so much.in nanyang,i feel at home.the teachers are nice and caring and you can really just joke and crap about anything with them like friends.and when you face difficulties,they actually care to take the initiative to help you.
haiz,but it's kind of sad that i couldn't go back to the dance studio..it's like there's no reason to,as in,i was never one of laoshi's fav or rather i'm probably one of her dislikes and also the fact that i'm not even in dance anymore gives me no excuse to go back there.and laoshi will probably think that i'm so not yin3 shui3 si1 yuan2 to not go back,but i just can't...totally feel like 作贼 when i tried to hide from laoshi ytd..argh..
but nevertheless..i really really really love ny!if given a chance to relive a part of my life,i would choose the 4 years in ny<3
thank you nanyang for the memories you've given me and the lessons you taught me..南洋永发光！hahaha
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i can't stand how we have to wait so long to get back our papers..== they need like 1 mth to mark csc?3 wks for gp and econs?and when asked,they would say why you all so enthu to get back?isn't it better to get back earlier,learn the mistakes we made and take actions earlier?then to drag on and on?wle==

i should stop stuffing myself with junks during tuition!!every tuition session is a 增肥 session..zz and stupid qiuhan just commented that i'm fat today!!T.T she said i was skinny last time,then last year suddenly become damn fat,coz i eat alot junks and not in dance anymore so don't exercise..then the fats build up== then now slimmed down from last year liao but still fatter than previouslyT.T!!zzz
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spent over $100 on aft blocks shopping/entertainment...ahh keep buying stuffs!!hehehhe...need to save up liao!

got back psychometric test report.besides the "style of relating with others" and the advantage part,all comments are negative to a greater extent...and thanks for saying i'm the typical average person for over 10 times wle==.
"you may be seen as somewhat unmotivated or undiscplined"== though it's true to a certain extent..but..who would employ someone like that==
"you have a relatively limited ability to discipline urself"T.T
"you may be tempted to bend the rules to benefit an individual,thus creating a sense of unfairness among other",HAHA yeah i'm damn biased lala:D
"your warmth and friendliness,when overdone,can be misintepreted by others and cause them to pull back from you.more cynical individuals might doubt the sincerety of your warmth"...zzz that's damn sad:/ too bad if you don't appreciate it hmph!
"you can become demanding in some circumstance",ahhhh..i am notttt demanding!i'm not right?..more people are starting to comment on that...
during tuition today,the aircon's super cold,so i asked the teacher to adjust it.
"better?"
"noooo!it's till blowing straight at me!"
"than don't sit there lah!very demanding leh you!"
D: i'm really very cold what...有错meh..
kay i shall try to be less demanding(unknowingly:/)+less possessive+be more motivated and disciplined+stop worrying too much about other..
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i seriously hate how some people can be so mean to others wle== why are you treating people like that when they didn't do a single shit to offend you?if you don't like the person,at least treat them with respect?coz what you are doing to be mean to the other person is actually embarrassing urself,if you didn't realise.
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just so that you knoe,though the psychometric test say i'm "slow to anger and frustration", that doesn't mean my patience and tolerance have no limits.
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time is ticking..
115 days.

执子之手与子偕老

2010-07-11T13:32:00.006+08:00

okay i don't know where to start!

this is so exciting yet disappointing!!!ahhh

today's the beeeeg dayyy~~

first kid in the family getting married omggg...but i can't attendT.T suck...

time passes like... zoooom!~

mama and dad were just discussing ytd how jiejie did all the funny stuffs when she was a toddler...

and they were horrified to realise how old they are already..hahaha

i bet everyone's happily enjoying the wedding meal now...with all the families and friends etcetc..so exciting!..except usT.T

why choose this dayyy....stupidstupid Alvls

major exams always clash with major events stupiiiid.

i've never even met my brother-in-law before==..fb doesn't count

and it'll probably be another 2 years before i'll see jiejie and jiefu...and it would have been 5 years again since i met jiejieT.T,why's it always like that,the previous time was also 5 years...

omg i got a jiefu noww!!huhuhuhu so interesting~i hope they'll have kids soooon!!

hmm i hope they go back to hk instead,so it'll be easier to meet up!..but maybe i can visit them in canada after As!!~~

i wonder if jiefu speaks chinese..?or just canto and english..

aha why didn't jiejie marry an angmoh!would have been interesting~hehe

昨天打电话给姐姐，

我：真是的我不能去参加。。

姐：不要紧，可以看录像嘛。到时候我去参加你的！(LOL)

我：那你应该会等到很久以后吧！哈哈

真的很遗憾不能去参加姐姐的婚礼。。。

很想撞墙去。。

不过还是要祝福最亲爱的姐姐，

希望姐姐和姐夫恩恩爱爱，早生贵子！！

还是要说，白头偕老。。虽然妈妈说这句话在今天已经过时了。。现在的人婚姻都不长久了。。(eg. kor just got a new stepsis!!:OOOO我要失宠了!:( new stepcousin for me..interesting/complicated haha:S)

姐姐一定要幸福！嘿嘿

相信今天的姐姐是世界上最美的新娘！<333333333

执子之手与子偕老

when somebody loved me

2010-07-10T16:55:00.003+08:00

love this song,so sweet but sad:/ and Sarah Mclachlan's voice is seriously beautiful,absolutely no flaws!<33

when somebody loved me,everything was beautiful

every hour we spent together lives within my heart

unicorns don't exist.....or maybe they do

2010-07-10T13:36:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really really reaaaaaally wish i can be less affected by things and people around.==
but i don't want my heart to be hardened either..:/
was talking to pastor a few months back about what i wanna do in the future.
and i told her if i become a psychologist/counsellor,i'll probably cry everyday,or be so disturbed by the situations of the clients/patients that my xin1 qing2 will be led by them.==
and pastor told me that,for people working in such areas,they are able to pull themselves away from the situation,listen from the prospective of a third party.it does not necessarily mean that their hearts are hardened,they can still feel for them but they will not be too affected by the situations.
有时很想置身于这个世界之外，以一个局外人的身份，看着一切从身边擦过。。就像一切都跟我没关系....
sometimes when i see people suffering or even those not in reality,i cry for them,i feel for them,but why,i don't even know them;what happens to them has got nothing to do with me..:S
sometimes i blame God for making me this way,i've enough to worry for myself,i don't need others to affect me..but this just cannot be controlled..haih
i was seriously veryvery affected yesterday:(((
i think most people will be happy if they score higher than others,but i don't particularly like that...maybe this is stupid but i'd rather my friends score better than me,coz if i score better,i just couldn't be happy either coz they're sad,so might as well let me be sad alone for my own lousy results...至少只有我一个人难过..zzz
有时候觉得自己好像小题大做，但我也没办法啊。。难到我想吗？。。==
i just wanna be happy..and i'll be happy if everyone else around is happy..zzz stupid me

流离～

smile?(:

2010-07-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

hmm,got back math,lilaoshi i know you'll be glad to see my improvement(:
i was happy after getting back math,until..
really hate to be the one breaking this to you:(
wish i didn't know!..grrrr

wish i can be less easily affected by people around me..

but anyway,i allow you to be sad for today,and only today!(:

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ahhh screwed for econs great.and chem

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no holiday or later school time on monday!stuuupiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidddstupiiiiiiiiiiiiidddstuuuuuuuupiiiiiiiiiiiiiid!!!!!DDDDD:

take a bow - rihanna

2010-07-04T21:15:00.002+08:00

level 1 of the challenge!(: gooo we can do it!AHAHA

seriously wasted most of my days away watching so you think you can dance!!!ohmygahhhhh...no time already!

to you lilaoshi

2010-06-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

i seriously don't know what/how to feel.
it's the first time in my life that someone around me is just,gone from the world,forever.
it just feels so unreal,so fake,so like a dream,so unrealistic,so unbelievable..
how can someone so young and healthy a few months back just suddenly pooof!gone?!no more?!
life is so unpredictable,it really really scares me...
it's like people you see everyday,or you know they are alive somewhere doing something,then suddenly,they are just gone,no more.i really don't know how to describe..it sucks..how can life be like that??!so sudden!so abrupt??huh??!:S
and even when sometimes,you know someone's going to go,but when they actually did,it still feels like something that seemed so impossible?..
i'm seriously freaked out.

and so this is dedicated to lilaoshi.
thank you for being the most wonderful math teacher,
and family friend.
you are always so 敬业...
always making sure i understand every single thing,
explaining to the most intricate detail of difficult questions,
all the time spent with you
together conquering math problems
is something that i'll miss..and never get to enjoy,yes enjoy again,ever.
you are the first teacher that sparked off my interest in math,
from hating to the core,to loving and enjoying.
you are the person who did miracles to my "math journey"..
from F9,E8s to A1s in just over 4 months' time..
from being utterly hopeless in math,
from giving up totally coz i thought and believed that i'll never make it for math,
from being stuck in math remedials and still never really improving,
to tackling math problems with easy,
to getting pleasures and sense of accomplishment in doing math,
to even feeling that i'm math expert!
the short 4+mths we spent together,
the short 4+mths that you helped me,out of the favour from a being friend of mama,
we've learnt so much,not just about math,
but also,that nothing is impossible if you just put your heart and soul to it,
i know it's cliche..
but you helped me to realise that i CAN do it,coz i really DID make it.
without you i might not even get into hwachong..
now that i'm in JC,
i'm stuck in math remedials again,
and sometimes it's like no matter how hard i try,
i just can't score.
and many times i doubt,
whether i can do the miracles that were done in sec4 again,
but i won't doubt anymore,
coz you'll watch over me,
you'll be there,
and i wanna do this,
not just for myself,
but for you too.
maybe this is the only way that i can thank you for all your effort..
this day,30th of june 2010
I,DUJIEYI,PROMISE THAT I'LL GET THAT A FOR MATH FOR A-LEVELS NO MATTER WHAT for you lilaoshi.

may you rest in peace
and may the Lord have mercy and keep your soul
and we shall meet again
someday in heaven,
and you're gonna say,
that you are proud of me!

i thank God for you.

and to my friends and family..
我会好好珍惜你们

screwed tong

2010-06-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

csc was screwed shit.had never been so ill-prepared for a paper.although i'm always doing last minute work,never THIS last minute.but fine thank God that fever went away leaving me with at least one day to prepare...but then again if it didn't go away,i wouldn't even have to take it!i would have much more time to revise and retake!== 又要垫底了！i think anyone who gets lower than me for the essays should seriously SERIOUSLY go knock himself/herself on the wall,应该没有这么screwed的人吧。。
anyway,thanks to all who prayed(:

looks like i've no time for gp again,i really really planned to study for gp this time.but..due to unforeseen circumstances..我也实在是无能为力啊～

please

2010-06-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

please save me,please heal me,please.
我现在真的不知道该怎么办才好了，
再烧下去就要烧坏了，傻了怎么办。
dear God i beg you,i beg you,please please please please please please please please.
what did i do that make you punish me like this?
5 days already,isn't that enough oh God?
please have mercy on me,please.
我该怎么办？
csc怎么办？
我错了我错了我错了我错了我错了我错了我错了我错了
救救我吧，求求求求求求你
i'm so damn angry,with myself and with the doctor.
why did he give me a bunch cough medicine when i'm not even coughing?!call yourself a doctor.
我没时间了，难道就这么牺牲了csc吗。。
please at least let me get well for the rest of the papers?please?
i beggggg you
我求你了
真的快要疯掉了

couldn't care less about it

2010-06-20T14:35:00.002+08:00

i'm not going to die mugging.
and since i'm sick,i'm not going to care about it anymore.
死就死，管不了那么多了！

i'm so much more,than what my grades show.
don't you dare judge me base on my grades.

stupid

2010-06-19T21:45:00.003+08:00

hope this will be the last time i'm getting sick before As...
for now,fever please don't come back again.
i think this is the 6th time i got sick this year,6 times in 6 mths..when did i become so sickish== i suck==

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HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DEAREST LIMQIANYICHERYL!MY LOVE~~~~
hope you had a great great day,wish you healthy and happy this day and EVERY day(:
18 hearts for you dearie <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

p.s sorry i'm a lousy friend:(

2010-06-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

knowledge which is acquired under compulsion obtains no hold on the mind.--Plato

there's new meaning to grace

2010-06-13T23:24:00.005+08:00

i think i shouldn't be so demanding...hmm and stop thinking WAYYYYY too much..makes me much happier too.

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falling in love with the song "in the presence",love the tune..

in the presence of a holy God,

there's new meaning now to grace.

....

in the presence of your infinite might,

i'm so small and frail and weak.

when i see yourpower and wisdom Lord,

i've no words left to speak.

was really really touched by this stanza during worship rehearsal...but i feel that i can't freely sing and worship during service today...can't even feel anything when prayed before the whole worship...grown cold?hardened?can totally feel the tension,i need to surrender my burdens...

anw thanks hongwei for the compliment!totally made my dayyyy!!:D never knew the word 'demure' can be used to describe somone's voice..ahaha.but it's the mic that does the trick lah..hehe

and thanks pastor too,even though my prayer was just a translation of joey's,hehe,but yup,it's the first step!(:

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"The only time you mustn't fail is the last time you try." - Charles F. Kettering

and this is gonna be the last time.

i need grace.

在想什么？

2010-06-11T15:37:00.002+08:00

i find it interesting that whenever i read others' blogs,i try to figure out what/who they are referring to,or whether they are talking about me?someone i know?or what they are trying to say between the lines...haha.i'm just thinking whether when others read my blog,do they too wonder about the same things?..hmm..
blogging is interesting,it can be a place where you spill out everything,or it can also be where you hide all your deepest secrets...ironic huh?

想回到过去

2010-06-10T16:38:00.004+08:00

喜欢活在过去，
也许是懦弱的表现？
因为害怕未知的未来，
害怕面对现实
面对改变。
害怕改变
害怕失去所爱的。
害怕有一天
所有的一切都不再一样。
甚至不喜欢现在，
因为现在也是动态的
也在不断的变化当中。
只有过去是静止的，
是不会再改变的。
就这样停下
好么？

the passion to dance on

2010-06-09T20:14:00.004+08:00

came upon this again today,and was once again touched by their perseverence and passion.

perseverence and passion for LIFE,for DANCE.

El Tango de Roxanne

2010-06-08T21:33:00.002+08:00

"Where love is the highest bidder, there can be no trust.Without trust,there is no love.Jealousy will drive you mad."
"why does my heart cry?feelings i can't fight.you're free to leave me,but just don't deceive me.and please believe me when i say,'i love you'."
"come what may,i will love you,till my dying day"

holding on till the end...with the grace of god

2010-06-08T14:10:00.003+08:00

thank you uncle david for sharing this.a very timely reminder and just what i need right now.

when we are suffering,God is in pain too,He won't leave us to survive on our own.

when you fail,when you fall,have faith and trust that our heavenly Father above will pick you up,and carry you through.

we just have to do what we can,and God will take care of the rest.

"when we are hurting and fighting to finish,He comes and helps us.our prayers may be awkward,our attempts may be feeble,but since the power of prayer is in the one who hears it,not the one who says it,our prayers do make a difference."

so just persevere and press on with faith and trust, and God will say,"we're going to finish this race together".

patrick to spongebob

2010-06-07T11:56:00.001+08:00

"Knowledge cannot replace friendship.I'd rather be an idiot than lose you." -patrick to spongebob(:

I LOVE THAT.

IMY

2010-06-05T20:56:00.005+08:00

hey dancers I MISS YOU loads!was looking through old photos and came across this,the candlelights just warm my heart so much(though i was saddened by the massive amount of candles on the mudpie:/). thank you and i love you gals-bozi,chou,darbi,fang,mao,nat,qiu,sheng.

我用所有报答爱

2010-06-03T14:28:00.004+08:00

我用所有报答爱

欣赏歌声中的那份凝重和凄凉。。

张靓颖真的唱出了电影和历史的精髓～

爱莲说

2010-06-02T16:28:00.001+08:00

《爱莲说》（宋）周敦颐

水陆草木之花，可爱者甚蕃。

晋陶渊明独爱菊；

自李唐来，世人盛爱牡丹；

予独爱莲之出淤泥而不染，

濯清涟而不妖，中通外直，不蔓不枝，

香远益清，亭亭静植，可远观而不可亵玩焉。

予谓菊，花之隐逸者也；

牡丹，花之富贵者也；

莲，花之君子者也。

噫！菊之爱，陶后鲜有闻；

莲之爱，同予者何人；

牡丹之爱，宜乎众矣。

看着舞蹈，细细品味这诗词，
可以感受到诗里的每个字都活了起来。

my favourite dance.
she's a great dancer.
love her ganjue and how it seems like music and dance became one.
it's dances like this that really make me miss dance,and regret..

有些遗憾
是无法抹去的

i just wanna run to you

2010-06-02T15:56:00.003+08:00

you are holding me,i shall fear no more.

not mine to share anymore

2010-06-01T21:17:00.003+08:00

would it have been differen,if..?
how different?
would my life be different?
would my friends be different?
would i have been happier?
or not?
would it be worth it?
would i complain like how i used to?
or would i treasure every moment i have?

what would i be?
where would i be?
would i ever...?

越看越想哭，悲啊～

friends

2010-05-31T20:24:00.003+08:00

"Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty." ~Sicilian Proverb
i like this,it's so funny.
reminds me of all the times when qianyi and i used to check each other's teeth everytime after we eat.
and all the times when mao commented that my **** is too **** and there are yan3 shi3 in my eyes.
and all the times when charming reprimanded me for slouching.
and when chou alerted me for something that was stuck in my teeth last week.
and many more...

memories

2010-05-31T16:35:00.004+08:00

we ran
we sat
we laughed
we talked
we thought
we screamed
we went crazy
under the cover of the night sky
the moon and the stars are our witnesses
we didn't want to go
we wish time would stop

what if one day
all that we are left with are just memories

stop falling sick

2010-05-22T13:39:00.002+08:00

just stop stop falling sick pls==
the number of times i got sick so far this year is probably equal to all the number of times in the past 10 year add up==.seriously.

值得吗

2010-05-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

有时不是想求回报
只是希望自己做的一切
都是值得的

.

2010-05-20T21:31:00.003+08:00

it sucks when feeling down for unknown reasons..zz

was surprised with my SAT result..hmm

God loves a cheerful giver.

happy birthday(:

2010-05-19T20:20:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to pastor!i managed to find out the date even though she didn't want to tell us..hehe.thanks uncle david!made her a card..it's like the 2nd card i ever made for anyone so far..so proud of myself coz i was never good at art&craft...the sheep serious don't look like sheep at all..and my handwriting suck== but nvm,hope she likes it:D

想家

2010-05-15T00:44:00.002+08:00

深夜里，
凉风吹着，
四周一片寂静，
我一个人打着字，
突然好想家。

i miss you

2010-05-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

I know i'm being very unreasonble
and i don't why i'm tearing
i'm kind of surprised actually

but i miss you:(

but i'm happy for you,really.
i shouldn't be selfish
and oversensitive.
i'm happy that you are happy(:
you've found where u belong.

happy mama day

2010-05-09T15:18:00.002+08:00

i'm so glad i blessed someone's day today(:
it was a great great day at church!
bought cakes and cards for pastor,aunty kerry and aunty betty:D
thank you pastor for being a mother to all of us!we love you:D
thank you aunty kerry for being so loving and always making me feel loved:D
thank you aunty betty for ur enthusiasm:D

a very happy mama's day to all of you<3
and to my dear mama too:D

I thank God for all of you(:

faith

2010-05-06T20:20:00.002+08:00

faith is spreading(:
i long for you to get to know God more,
and to accept Him as Lord over your life.
i know it won't be easy,
but with God nothing's impossible;
what's more
there's faith

为了祖国

2010-05-04T20:30:00.002+08:00

当一个人
身在异国他乡，
他所代表的
并不是其个人本身，
而是一个国家
一个民族。
也许有人觉得，
一个人的力量、
行为，算不了什么；
但别人看到的你，
不是你
而是你的国家；
所以为了自己的国家，
为了民族，
请做好自己

please take care

2010-05-02T14:58:00.003+08:00

you need to rest, dear pastor, slow down and take a rest. maybe that's what God wants you to do right now.please please take care and get well soon. i'll pray triple-ly hard!
"hey i am having fever and now you warm my heart further, i will reach boiling point."
and you just warmed my heart with that(:

:(

2010-04-22T21:08:00.002+08:00

i just feel really bad..
i'm so sorry.
i'm such a horrible person D:
maybe i'm just overreacting..
or not.
but i just can't get over it..:(

reflection

2010-04-20T20:10:00.002+08:00

i guess everyone will come to reflect upon their lives,their futures
at one point in life.
and i guess
"i guess"
has become my new kou3 tou2 chan2..

i hate 2.4..
no i hate ageing..
i love running when the sky's cloudy;
but i hate running with a blocked nose
and i definitely hate failing to achieve what has always been so easy.

i'm not in the best state to run,

but well,those are excuses.

this was the most demoralising thing this year
and i hope it'll be the last.

2010-04-19T21:00:00.003+08:00

I guess sometimes
I just have to be reminded that
I don't have to envy others
or be jealous;
coz i don't have to have
what others have;
and i don't have to experience
what others experience.
I have a life
specially designed
and maped out.
I'm blessed
with everything
that i already have;
all i have to do
is to treasure each and every one
of those blessings;
and be thankful

i don't know where you are leading..
lost and uncertain

pw

2010-04-16T17:15:00.004+08:00

期待了好久的PW成绩终于出来了。

A是拿到了，但是，没有想象中的那种兴奋和激动。

也许这就是同欢喜，同悲伤？

想高兴，心里却很沉重。

将近10个月的并肩奋斗，

结果却是如此不同。

对不住老师，

我们成了她白纸上的一个黑点。

也许生活就是如此，

总有太多的不完美，

太多的无奈。

路是自己的，

要怎么走，

就看你选择如何面对。

收拾好心情，

更坚强、

更自信地向前走，

彩虹就在不远处～

into the body of christ

2010-04-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

This day 3 years ago,
I was baptized into the body of Christ.
from that day on,
life is never the same again,
i'm a child of God;

There were times when i felt so lost,
doubtful,
depressed and
losing faith;
but whenever i fell to the trough,
God picked me up.

I falter so easily in faith,
yet God is faithful
and always there,
waiting for me
to come back to His loving embrace.

When i fell down,
He picked me up;
never rejecting me
for being a loser
a failure,
or for hurting Him.
coz i'm wonderfully and fearfully made
in His image;
I'm God's original masterpiece.

God doesn't make junk,
He made each and everyone here on Earth
with a special purpose in mind.
each one is unique and precious to Him,
no matter what conditions we are in,
His love for us will always be the same.

God doesn't ask from us anything in return,
He just wanna give us His love.
Nothing we've done
and nothing we ever do,
will make Him love us less.
coz He is the everlasting God,
our loving abba.

Through the years,
God has shown me time and again,
His great mercy and grace.
and at the end of the day,
nothing matters more
than living a life in the love of God.

Lord i just wanna be where you are.

Jesus rules

2010-03-30T21:27:00.003+08:00

this skit never fails to bring a tear or two to my eyes every time.

true enough,you are all i want,you are all i need,you are everything.EVERYTHING.

THE LORD REIGNS!

lead me to the cross

2010-03-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

The cutest little thing singing the old rugged cross!

The Lord must be so pleased(:

'And He said,"i tell you the truth,unless you change and become like little children,you will never enter the kingdom of heaven"' Matthew 18:3

"He was wounded for our transgressions,crushed for out iniquities;by His wounds we are healed." Isaish 53:5

what if

2010-03-28T15:31:00.002+08:00

I love this song

getting sick and staying at home gave me more time to read and meditate on God's words.

花木兰

2010-03-26T19:00:00.005+08:00

花木兰的故事，家喻户晓。
那是一个，多么勇敢的女子？

刚刚看完赵薇和陈坤主演的《花木兰》。
真的很感动；
为战场上的残酷，
为战场上的温情，
更为那份卫国的热情。

战场上有太多的无奈，
有情人终不能眷属；
因为责任，
背负着一个国家的责任。

铁衣下的你我从患难到心碎
一颗心葬了几滴泪
一生情背我往前飞
记住这天地中的美
我想喝家里的井水
却吞下生死的滋味
就让我敬往事一杯
对自己说绝不后退

讓我把回憶當晚餐
吞下這許多年的酸
愛恨是掌心的沙漠
故事被點了穴遺忘

喜欢电影里的两首主题曲－《木兰情》和《木兰星》；

那种刺穿心骨的痛，夹杂着无奈，和改变不了的命运...

“要死，我也要死在战场上，你陪我吗？”“陪”

“我每天都数一遍天上的星星，一颗都没有多”

Alice in wonderland

2010-03-26T12:41:00.003+08:00

Alice in wonderland!i'm addicted to this song!

i realise actually all the soundtracks are quite nice

the way of the cross

2010-03-24T11:14:00.002+08:00

The burning passion of Chinese Christians

God's great power and love is most clearly seen through hardships and sufferings.
In the end,His grace is sufficient.
may God bless and protect the Christians in China.
God is doing His work in China.

feel the joy

2010-03-23T18:43:00.004+08:00

The Joy of the Lord is my strength!

something new

2010-03-21T17:34:00.004+08:00

for "when the music fades,all is stripped away",all is gone;indeed,nothing else matters more than living a life in you(:
once again,it's God's pefect timing;it left us speechless(:
and again,thank God for pastor!

i just have to do whatever i can,and lift up the rest into God's hands.coz He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.(Philippians 1:6)

indeed, let us grow our faith in the hope of what He is going to do, rather than what we expect Him to do.

open the eyes of my heart Lord,i want to see you.

我会找回来的

2010-03-19T20:02:00.003+08:00

听到久违了的音乐，心里有种说不出的滋味。。。
许多回忆涌上心头。。。
还有那个曾经努力向上的我
那个坚强、不怕困难的我
那个向着目标奋斗的我
那个我
我会找回来的

努力，不一定会成功；
但成功者必定是努力的

bursting with joy

2010-03-16T19:03:00.005+08:00

just went to see pastor.feel so relieved and light-hearted now!(: it was great destressing!pastor sure is a good counsellor!haha
and i feel so enlightened and renewed(:
true enough,if it's not real, you can't hold it in your hand, and you can't feel it with you heart.

we finished a whole box of tissue!!:D ok that's abit exaggerated,there weren't much left in the box to start with.i used 8 pieces,pastor used 2..hehe,so..that make it 10 pieces!sometimes tears can express better than words and it's "universal".crying is God's way of healing.when the tears are flowing outside,the heart is healing inside.

thank you pastor,for the sharing and for letting me see God through you.i realise things can be settled if we really just open up and talk about it, instead of bottling up everything coz sharing of burdens really makes the heart feel lighter,and happier.hope i won't have to make you worry about me...

thank you lovely woman,i love you!(:

when God ran

2010-03-14T21:18:00.004+08:00

a powerful and beautiful song that brought much tears and reflection.it's like God himself speaking through the lyrics..i can almost feel myself in his embrace.

but,i'm just wondering,why hasn't he run to me yet?Father i'm so lost,i feel so drained

pastor said i'm getting sick very often lately coz i'm too stressed,i told her i'm not.but,it seems like maybe stress has been here in another form..just that i couldn't recognise it and not sure how to deal with it,so i pretend that it's not here..

daughter of a king

2010-03-12T20:16:00.001+08:00

Do you wonder if He knows who you are?
Do you wonder if He knows the secret pleadings of your heart?
He has numbered every sand of the sea
And he longs for you to know that He believes in you

Can you feel a quiet power from above?
Can you feel His strength surround you when your own is not enough?
He has blessed you with his spirit from on high
And He longs for you to know it lives inside of you
Oh, be true --

Daughter of a King,
the Father's royalty
heir to His divinity
He's calling your name
to come and take your place before His throne
He has always known
what he created you to be
A daughter of a King

You hold the promises of all eternity
Rise to claim the noble birthright you were sent here to receive
He has loved you since you lived with Him before
Let Him lead you to the gifts He has in store for you
Oh, be true --

Daughter of a King,
the Father's royalty
heir to His divinity
He's calling your name
to come and take your place before His throne
He has always known
what he created you to be
Daughter of a King-

Daughters of a King
The Father's royalty
heirs to His divinity
He's calling our names
to come and take our place before His throne
He has always known
what He created us to be
Daughter of a King

this is so reassuring(:

i love math

2010-03-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

GP was so sucky!i've never done a more difficult and lame paper before.they trying to kill us?

i love mathhhh!:D i don't wanna be chem rep now,i wanna be math rep!ahahha.i realise that i was never the reps of my favourite teachers!how sad!and having a good teacher/a teacher whom i like can really affect how much i like the subject and consequently how well i do for the subject.i totally love math nowwwww!love mrs yap's teaching style,so clear and easy to understand:D and even though she's very nice and good tempered, she got this if-she-gets-angry-she'll-be-damn-scary kind of feel,so it makes you do her work.i'm still extremely overwhelmed by the crazy math remedial schedule next week!3 sessions with 3 hours for each session!it's crazy!but i'm equality mad,coz guess what,i'm actually really looking forward to it!:O
shall pia math and dao chem...sorry ms meta!and i miss youuuu:(

i am special!(:

2010-03-07T21:04:00.009+08:00

“要多吃补品才不会生病，改天我跟你妈妈讲怎么煲汤，不然的话我帮你煲！”
“啊？你很空闲么？”
“不是空闲啊，是你special呀！～”

thank you for constantly reminding me that i am special(:
you are too kind<33

我看見上帝的印記，
我聽見上帝的旨意，
我願意俯服敬拜你，
我願意歌舞頌揚你。

一切都是你的美意，
從此不再有心無力，
求主賜下流奶與蜜，
引領我至迦南美地.

主啊我是你的掌上明珠，
大海裡沉睡的珍珠，
雖然經過流淚之谷，
在曠野裡得蒙救贖，

主啊我是你的掌上明珠，
大海裡甦醒的珍珠，
我願用盡我的全部，
誠心所願，單單順服。

God's precious(:

so hard

2010-03-01T13:09:00.002+08:00

i used to think that finding a good friend is hard, now i realised that trying to be a good friend is even harder.no matter how hard i try, i just couldn't be the kind of friend i wanna be.and no matter how nice i try to be, people around are just never satisfied and pleased.they will always expect more from you, they will always think that you are not doing enough, they will always find fault in you.人们啊，学会珍惜吧

To the great one

2010-03-01T12:40:00.003+08:00

this post is dedicated to one of the greatest composer and pianist ever lived. the perfect embodiment of romaticism---Frédéric François Chopin (1 March 1810 - 17 October 1849)
it's chopin's 200th birthday today!to chopin, music is not just a group of random notes strung together in some fixed arrangement, every single note and ornament tells a story. he did not just play music, he feels for them; and every piece is so full of emotions, nobody can be unstirred listening to it. and when you listen to it, the music become part of you.
chopin is just amazing.nobody can ever be as great.he's my inspiration,my comfort,my encouragement.
happy 200th birthday to the great one!<3

one of my favourite from chopin

You are not alone

2010-02-21T17:26:00.005+08:00

"when you feel down, look at yourself through God's eyes...

There are times when no matter how hard you try, you just cannot accept yourself as you are. During such times, think of how you look to God's eyes. In God's eyes, there is no judgment, there is only acceptance. God sees your light when all that you can see are your shadows. God loves you more than anyone could ever love you as you really are. "

so, remember you people,

remember your children,

remember your promise, O God

for your grace is enough

your grace is enough

you grace is enough

for me

真的很想

2010-02-20T21:24:00.002+08:00

旋转的木马
模糊了世界
那个舞台不再有我

:(

2010-02-20T16:48:00.003+08:00

突然好空虚
生命就是如此？

为什么我这么猪头

那些辛苦了几个月，留下的眼泪，都不再有
泪水，因为某个细小的地方没能做到完美；
泪水，因为那么久辛苦努力所换来的成就和欣慰。

每次看到你们
心里都有种说不出的滋味
if only i were there too

i know that dwelling in regrets won't change anything
but it's haunting me till i couldn't let go

难道我的高中生活就这样了吗？

this is not what i want
this is not what i want
this is not what i want
this is not what i want
this is not what i want

parents day!

2010-02-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

parents day!quite interesting to hear what the teachers have to say about me..haha.but i'm too good for them to say anything bad:D
ma said all my teachers quite good-looking,我撞墙～～....i shall not comment in detail..
ma told all the teachers to be extremely strict with me and ask me alot of questions during lessons..wonderful.ma likes mrs yap!:D said she look like a very 精明 person and very clear-minded..unlike XX who she said was abit 语无伦次...真是说到点子上了！
xinyan and her ma look exactly the same!!...liying rannn when she heard that my ma wanna meet her!:/ niao-ed kaini ttm in front of ma..hahahahah.and the most epic thing is,ma liked liang!!!!!she even went back to the room hoping to have another chat with him,but too bad he's busy!goshh~
i cannot stand it when my own teacher doesn't know my name!!!!worse,mistake me for someone else..==

原来得到的越多，就会越害怕失去...
can i trust you?

被爱的小孩

2010-02-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

其实觉得自己好幸福的，有很多疼我、爱我的长辈们。可贵的是，好多都跟我毫无任何血缘关系，却对我百般爱护，让我沐浴在不只是家人的爱中；小的时候，有时真的会分不清他们到底是家人还是外人。。。但我宁愿把他们当作家人。
很感激他们，也很想念～
如今那个被您们宠着、护着的小孩已经长大了，您们也都还好吗？

little kids are love~

2010-02-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

i love playing with little kiddos!:D
spent the whole evening entertaining dad's friend's 3-year-old son~
he's so super cuuuuute!and sometimes it's so hard to understand what he's saying..!hehe.but i managed to set myself to his frequency.. and he's so super energentic!i have to admit i'm oldddd...was quite tired after a while,but he was still talking and running around,high on sugar(pun intended,he ate lotsa new year goodies,chocs especially!) brought him to the playground and he was scared of the fake dino..and when i hid his shoe,i told him that the dino ate it..he believed..hohoho.then liu2 qian1 came on TV to do magic tricks,he tried to do a trick as well.but it was so obvious and dumb it made me laugh to tears.and he just keep saying he's a huai4 ren2 and will eat me up!haha.lil' kids are so adorable!~~

happy birthday to baby kyra!she's 3 years old too!haven't seen her for so long..miss you sweetie(:

church is super deserted today..very few people went.those who went were probably like my family,relative-less...at least not in s'pore,haha.was super glad to see yen hang after like 3 or 4 years!miss ya!(:

大家春节快乐！

:(

2010-02-08T18:59:00.001+08:00

I AM DAMNNNNN SAD!

i'll miss you loads:(

have mercy on me

2010-01-31T14:50:00.002+08:00

I’m dying from coughing~

1 year ago..

2010-01-29T16:51:00.008+08:00

orientation started yesterday,i feel the excitement and superiority over the juniors!:D

was looking back at my posts from last year,orientation period and the beginning of school,thought some parts were rather interesting..

"my arms are sore from crawling on slippery soup(haha?!).
i love the songs and dances.i was in OG31.we lost almost all the games on the 1st OG game.but for the subsequent ones we won almost all of them!the first day everyone sian diao(yeahh).but i think through the games our group start to bond.we had OG dinner on thur and fri(love the dinners and the chitchat/games/storytelling sessions),was pretty fun.thank you people for making my first week of orientation so fun.(suppose to have dinner with og31 juniors today!but guess they still feel uncomfortable so they didn’t want to dinner together..haha.it’s been a long time since og got tgt)" feb 08,2009

"second week of orientation came and went...i survived...but it's gone now..no more orientation,no more slacking..life's gonna be back to normal,back to studying(HOW TRUE!:((().suddenly missing OG(yeah..orientation!)...influenced by oly...have to admit that i'm not especially close with everyone but the feeling of the whole group is what i miss the most,the togetherness.just wanna remember every single one of you.oly,sandra,waifoon,jieqi,yuchi,yuqi,nicole,

yihong,grace,yenjin,celene,jessie,eliza,melissa,zongxian,

basil,hengyang,melvin,binkun,huaqing,shengqian,

timothy,tommy,chaychoong,

zachary,zhenyu,wilford and of coz not forgeting our OGL marianne.got into new CT class 09S67.everyone was quite enthu and high,even paopao said so.and nice and fun CTL huijuan.we already know almost everyone in the group,there's only one nanhua girl in our class(lingzhuo!:Dshe totally integrated successfully into the class full of IPs),the rest either from high sch or ny.painted our flag,performed our item though didn't get chosen,it was really fun.war game was madness,we could well kill someone there on the field,it was so violent.we didn't win but it was a great experience.artemis is really really cool,being blue has never been cooler,i love the fac dance.artemis won CT games.campfire night was damn high,screamed like siao,think we rocked the whole of bt timah." feb 14,2009

"First week of proper lesson..stressed...lotsawork..lotsa deadlines...(first week is already that stressed?!==)PW sounds extremely scary(yes it is!but I miss it!)...GP is totally like LA==(only ten times more difficult!==).dying of lack of sleep.1 and half hrs of csc almost killed me with boredom(so I slept through this 1&half hr of jinyuan’s csc lesson for the whole year..).chem lectures damn fast,no time to think.chem teacher's damn cute and pretty.econs's fun(sure?..ok it is..but).got leong as econs tutor(HAHA),played game today,our group won!joined hangcheng but never go for any cca session.fac dance session on mon, tue and wed.love fac dance so much!!!coolest thing ever!!!starting to enjoy my class...lotsa enthu people!damn on about fac dance.we had our own class dance session today since the official one was postponed to next week.and we also practised during break!very few people turned up for the dance sessions,yesterday our class stayed back to practise even after we were dismissed.we just danced again and again,the music keep playing.(where’s the enthuness..)was so fun!!!class bonding too!(: love fac dance!!!dancedancedancedancedance!!!(YAY!wanna learn the new dance!)" feb 19,2009

"Orientation officially ended with the post orientation party(POP).we didn't win the fac dance competition,but in my heart we are still the winner,coz we tried(: No more fac dance practices..no more going crazy over fac dance in the morning,during breaks,and even during lessons...no more staying back late after official dance practice to dance again and again.no more fac dance,no more dance.i miss fac dance:( and i'll sure miss the times dancing and practising with the class,the bonding(yessss:((((). Through all the series of orientation activities,our class really bonded a lot.It so nice to be in such a wonderful class with a bunch of crazy,high and enthu people." march 01,2009

“this shall be an extremely short post.super busy,not a minute of free time since school started.
went tahan training on monday,it really lives up to it's name,TAHAN.一个字，猛！we climbed 23 storeys 5 times with sandbags and water bottles in our bags.thought i might die,but fortunately i didn't,and surprisingly i felt good after the training.maybe u'll think i'm crazy,but i just felt so good and happy after training,i love it.but the thing is..can i tahan for two whole years.(quitting tahan is a bigbig mistake,love-hate relationship is the best)” March 07,2009

it's amazing how friends all started as total strangers but can become so close as time go by..

anw i realise coughing is good for training abs,i'm having muscle aches from coughing too much~==

this is such a nice shade of purple!<3

2010-01-26T18:46:00.002+08:00

ohgosh,the throat is acting up again...and it's tuesday again!bad day.please please don't be sick again:S
sang too hard during worship on sunday even though my throat haven't really recovered.but no choice,how can you not sing when you are leading==..but i don't regret coz the wonderful experience i got far outweighed the sore throat.just don't cause another fever will do.lucky i withdrew from singing backup the coming sunday,if not will pull everyone down.looks like i've to 戒辣 for at least another 2 weeksT.T.

save haiti!so sad,it's like beyond repair and nothing anyone can do will salvage the situation..

ok i'm probably not making sense..

not for our glory but for your glory

2010-01-23T22:41:00.003+08:00

it seems like the shortest 2 and a half hour of my life..hahah
worship rehearsal was great today!i never realise we took so long,thought it was only 12+ when we ended,but it was 2pm!and surprisingly i don't even feel hungry!indeed,life doesn't depend on bread alone.there is the spiritual bread of life.
i'm just so happy to be involved in leading the worship tomorrow,i consider it a privilege.it's great to be able to serve in God's ministry,no matter how small or insignificant it might be.just hope that what i do will please Him and bring glory to him.hope tomorrow will be great,i'm prepared to be blessed and to bless others,God will speak to us through songs.just have to keep in mind that we are not doing this for our own enjoyment,not to show off our how great we can sing,play the guitar,keyboard or drums,but to bring glory and praise to God,hoping that the little things we do will please Him.
i cannot help but wanting to share with everyone how amazing God is,especially through this school network that i joined.if lydia didn't tell me i wouldn't know,how He brought me to the group and answered my prayers in His own ways and how he did not forget me even when i fall away.God is so sweet.and i'm awed by His divine timing and perfect grace.He's just too amazing.i'm just super glad that i joined the campus network,couldn't be thankful enough.the fact that God chose me out of all people by telling lydia is a re-confirmation in itself.there's nothing else i should worry or fear coz since it's part of His plan,he'll help me to overcome whatever problems that i might encounter.
tomorrow's gonna be a great day!(:

In His presence

2010-01-20T21:21:00.003+08:00

this week has been good so far,nothing super good happened but for some reason i just feel very happy each day!:D maybe it's coz i took jiejie joey's advice and really include God in every single details of my life,talking to Him as often as i can.it's great to tell Him everything,my thoughts,my opinions,my trouble,my happiness.

the meeting this morning was good.though it was my first time and felt weird initially,after a while it got better.everyone's nice and charis seems friendly enough(: at first i was quite worried about some things but after praying about it for quite long,yesterday night somehow i just felt this sense of excitement over the meeting and was even looking forward to it!God is amazing(: i really enjoyed the time and fellowship!it's just so nice to get together with people of the same faith and really share and learn together.i'm really thankful for God who showed the way and lydia for leading me to the group.it's amazing how all these just happen at the most 'right' time.again,our God is an awesome God!

i'll be part of the worship team singing for the service this sunday!!!yayness,i'm so excited and nervous!just so happy to be able to get involved and serve in the littlest things i can.

jealousy is a sin.it's the sin that i commit the most.i hope i'll learn to understand that i should not over-crave for human love and attention,coz none of which lasts.only love from God is eternal and unchanging.

if

2010-01-16T11:26:00.002+08:00

Koped from sherm(: even the colours are the same..lazy to change,heh.

if i were a month, i'd be august.
if i were a day of the week, i'd be friday.
if i were a time of the day, i'd be 7pm.
if i were a planet, i'd be neptune.
if i were a sea animal, i'd be a dolphin.
if i were a direction, i'd be east.
if i were a piece of furniture, i'd be a bed.
if i were a liquid, i'd be hot chocolate.
if i were a tree, i'd be a maple tree.
if i were a flower, i'd be a lavender.
if i were a kind of weather, i'd be a rainy.
if i were a musical instrument, i'd be a cello.
if i were a color, i'd be pale purple.
if i were an emotion, i'd be compassion.
if i were a fruit, i'd be a strawberry.
if i were a sound, i'd be bells ringing.
if i were an element, i'd be hydrogen.
if i were a food, i'd be a mushroom.
if i were a place, i'd be vienna, austria.
if i were a taste, i'd be sour.
if i were a scent, i'd be sweet pea.
if i were an object, i'd be a camera.
if i were a body part, i'd be the eyes.
if i were an expression, i'd be a cheshire-cat grin.
if i were a song, i'd be I can only imagine, by mercy me.

first week=short

2010-01-15T16:20:00.002+08:00

first week of school turned out to be extremely short for me..hahah
i thought i'm going to die==
the amount of water i drank for the past 3 days was probably what i'll normally drink for a month..er ok abit exaggerated.
first time consulting a doctor in all my 9 years in singapore..and first time getting a mc!ahaha,so interesting!i've never even seen how a mc look like before.hoho
my plan to pon open house turn out to be not pon after all!i've valid reasons!hoho.and the previous night i dreamt of having a temperature of 38.1,then the next day i'm really sick!so this "dream come true"?!:O

毛的窝

falling over lil' boys:)

shine at beacon:)

20110101

this is the 365th post

tuesdays with morrie

troubled

最后的战役

当我开始想念

人越大，越难过。。

愚かな

有种不舍的感觉

树

God says

lost memo~

it is time

然后呢？

下雨天

原来幸福可以如此简单

growing up

闭上眼睛 许个愿

faithful

abcde_ you lizard

never let hope die

jie's wedding!

命中注定我爱你

the typical average

执子之手 与子偕老

when somebody loved me

unicorns don't exist.....or maybe they do

smile?(:

take a bow - rihanna

to you lilaoshi

screwed tong

please

couldn't care less about it

stupid

there's new meaning to grace

在想什么？

想回到过去

the passion to dance on

El Tango de Roxanne

holding on till the end...with the grace of god

patrick to spongebob

IMY

我用所有报答爱

爱莲说

i just wanna run to you

not mine to share anymore

friends

memories

stop falling sick

值得吗

.

happy birthday(:

想家

i miss you

happy mama day

faith

为了祖国

please take care

:(

reflection

pw

into the body of christ

Jesus rules

lead me to the cross

what if

花木兰

Alice in wonderland

the way of the cross

feel the joy

something new

我会找回来的

bursting with joy

when God ran

daughter of a king

i love math

i am special!(:

so hard

闭上眼睛许个愿

执子之手与子偕老