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faith.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for
the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1

♥ Prayer

Father, hold me,
In your arms of love,
Where it's safe to be
A little child who's made for love.
When You hold me,
I am free to be,
Who i'm meant to be.
Father, I'm Your child, Your own,
Your beloved.


♥ His Beloved

JIEYI
child of God(:

♥ Messages



♥ escape

206'06
SIXERS
JoJo
Ying Hui
Haidee
Kah Hsing
Jin Qing
J9
Yu Shi
Zi Xin
Qiao Yan
Tiffany
Charming Lin
Lim Min
Lim Qing
Zhi Ying
Sandy
Larrie
Qian Wen
Katherine
Kai Ni
Qi Tian
Valerie
Allyssa
Ching Man
Liang Hui
Xueyan Maoking

409'08
409
Wen Jing
Bee Hiang
Hee Ai
Sheila
Sarah
Yin Kuan
Ee Ning
Gou Jun
Annabelle
Yi Xin

Dancers
NYCD
NYCD batch'08
Clara
Sheena
Hern Hern
Jialing
Cheryl
Bianca
BoJia
Shermaine
ShuShu
Debbie
Qiu Han
Cloudy
Siyu
Natalie
Amanda

NYGH
Chen
Shi Yu
106'06
Yu Chi
SYF photos

hwachong
09S67
ARTEMIS
Jieqi
Basil
Liying
Zongxian
Chentian
Qianqian
guoxinyan

others
zhangyuchen
fudanfuzhong
Qinyu
Wei Jun
Xinglin
Si Wen
Kok Haw
Yvonne
PaoPao
Ruoxi
my good qualities
my bad points

♥ The pasts

~ July 2006
~ August 2006
~ September 2006
~ October 2006
~ November 2006
~ December 2006
~ January 2007
~ February 2007
~ March 2007
~ April 2007
~ May 2007
~ June 2007
~ July 2007
~ August 2007
~ September 2007
~ October 2007
~ January 2008
~ March 2008
~ April 2008
~ May 2008
~ June 2008
~ July 2008
~ August 2008
~ September 2008
~ October 2008
~ November 2008
~ December 2008
~ January 2009
~ February 2009
~ March 2009
~ April 2009
~ May 2009
~ June 2009
~ July 2009
~ August 2009
~ September 2009
~ October 2009
~ November 2009
~ December 2009

♥ Be thankful

Designer | 1 2 3 | Image
turn your eyes upon jesus
Friday, December 25, 2009 ♥ 9:48 PM

Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in Marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a Wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and Pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in the same day.

Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him on his back Mountain climbing and once hauled him across the U.S. On a bike.

This love story began in Winchester , Mass. , 43 years ago, when Rick Was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him Brain-damaged and unable to control his limbs.

"He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life;'' Dick says doctors told him And his wife, Judy, when Rick was nine months old. ``Put him in an Institution.''

But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the way Rick's eyes Followed them around the room. When Rick was 11 they took him to the Engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there was Anything to help the boy communicate. ``No way,'' Dick says he was told. ``There's nothing going on in his brain.''

"Tell him a joke,'' Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns out a Lot was going on in his brain. Rigged up with a computer that allowed Him to control the cursor by touching a switch with the side of his Head, Rick was finally able to communicate. First words? ``Go Bruins!'' And after a high school classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the School organized a charity run for him, Rick pecked out, ``Dad, I want To do that.''

Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described ``porker'' who never ran More than a mile at a time, going to push his son five miles? Still, he Tried. ``Then it was me who was handicapped,'' Dick says. ``I was sore For two weeks.''

That day changed Rick's life. ``Dad,'' he typed, ``when we were running, It felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!''

And that sentence changed Dick's life. He became obsessed with giving Rick that feeling as often as he could. He got into such hard-belly Shape that he and Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon.

``No way,'' Dick was told by a race official. The Hoyts weren't quite a Single runner, and they weren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For a few Years Dick and Rick just joined the massive field and ran anyway, then They found a way to get into the race Officially: In 1983 they ran another marathon so fast they made the Qualifying time for Boston the following year.

Then somebody said, ``Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?''

How's a guy who never learned to swim and hadn't ridden a bike since he Was six going to haul his 110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still, Dick Tried.

Now they've done 212 triathlons, including four grueling 15-hour Ironmans in Hawaii . It must be a buzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud Getting passed by an old guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't you Think?

Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? ``No way,'' he says. Dick does it purely for ``the awesome feeling'' he gets seeing Rick with A cantaloupe smile as they run, swim and ride together.

This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finished their 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out of more than 20,000 starters. Their best Time? Two hours, 40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the world Record, which, in case you don't keep track of these things, happens to Be held by a guy who was not pushing another man in a wheelchair at the Time.

``No question about it,'' Rick types. ``My dad is the Father of the Century.''

And Dick got something else out of all this too. Two years ago he had a Mild heart attack during a race. Doctors found that one of his arteries Was 95% clogged. ``If you hadn't been in such great shape,'' One doctor told him, ``you probably would've died 15 years ago.'' So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.

Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care) and works in Boston, and Dick, retired from the military and living in Holland, Mass. , always find ways to be together. They give speeches around the country and compete in some backbreaking race every weekend, including this Father's Day.

That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but the thing he really wants to give him is a gift he can never buy.

``The thing I'd most like,'' Rick types, ``is that my dad sit in the chair and I push him once.''


this video was shown during service today,it was really wonderful to see this inspiring video again.the video that ms teng showed me in sec2,it was this video that encouraged me and pulled me through my most depressed period.nothing is impossible,always believe and have faith.thank you ms teng,i can never be grateful enough for how you helped me.i'll never forget that christmas when i was all alone in singapore,without even proper dinner for christmas,you invited me in to share the meal with you and mum.you are truly an angel sent from above..

MERRY CHRISTMAS WORLD!


"christmas isn't christmas

'til it happens in your heart

somewhere,deep inside you

is where christmas really starts

so give your heart to Jesus

you'll discover when you do

that it's christmas,

really christmas for you!"






some people say,19years,there's still alot to live.

thanks but i've had enough of this life.

i wish for the world to end soon,sorry to those who love the world.

who can understand?

who can i talk to?

who can i trust?

nobody.

take me home to you Lord.

help me through the agony of this life

O holy night
Thursday, December 24, 2009 ♥ 10:31 PM
i realise you can actually cry and say "haha" at the same time,doesn't affect anything..haha==
why are you,oh my soul so disturbed within me?
it's the time to rejoice,over the birth of our Lord
but what's wrong with me?
i just wanna be happy

getting ready
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 ♥ 8:25 PM
finally met up with pastor.love hearttoheart talks with her(:
there were much laughter,tears and sharing...一年来的难过和委屈,sorry can't control mysef..but it was great fa1 xie4-ing!hoho.
i'm tired of the things of this world.
"it's been a very long time"..she's right,i've been straying for too long,time to come back.

time and again you've shown me that putting hopes in man will only lead to disappointment,but i was stubborn.
i've learnt my lessons,for you alone is faithful and will always be there,whenever wherever.
great is thy faithfulness,you are unchanging.you are always there waiting for us to come home to you..


the cutest little thing!and she's almost standing on her toes without pointe shoes!


open my eyes that i may see,open my ears that i may hear..

as we prepare to celebrate the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ this christmas,help lost souls like mine to come back to you..

9 years
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ♥ 4:15 PM
a happy post to push down the dullll one!

on this day,this time,9 years ago,i was on the plane with mommy!destination:singapore.
first time out of the country,leaving family,relatives,friends behind,to a place i've only heard of a few times.i was sad to leave the home i've known for 10 years but not afraid,coz i've mommy with me(: dad was so sad he didn't even send us to the boarding gate but left,almost running, as soon as we reached the airport without even saying bye,i was puzzled.later he told me that he was so sad we are leaving if he had stayed one second longer,he would have cried in front of us!haha.but finally all three of us are reunited after 7 years:D

九年只是一眨眼的工夫,
但九年足以改变一个人的生命;
新加坡改变了我们一家的命运。
感谢新加坡,
更感谢妈妈当年勇敢的抉择;
一个人离乡背井,
带着孩子走出了国门,
那是怎样的一种勇气?

感谢这位不平凡的母亲;
因为她坚定的信念,
那个十岁小女孩的生命
从此改变了

一个人的旅行
Monday, December 21, 2009 ♥ 5:25 PM
拖了好久,终于给辰回了信。写信其实也是一种对这一年来、对自己的反思吧。
有太多人,太多事
是我们无法留住的。
辰说的对,
“有好多人
也许以后都不会再见了
因为我们都有自己的路要走。”
没有人会一直陪着我们。
在人生列车上
就是一直有人上
有人下;
大家都有着不同的目的地。
你也不会知道
身边的人什么时候会下车。
人生也许就是
一个人的旅行
孤独的~

我不适合这个世界
因为我不肯面对命运的安排

想相信
距离不是障碍,
只要心还在一起
就没有克服不了的困难;
但现实
一次又一次的打击着我的幻想,
也许,一切都只是梦
而我们不活在梦里。
人在变
世界在变,
有时候
想留住一些人或事,
真的很难,好累

厌倦了离别

为什么周围的一切
不能永远一样?
为什么要改变?
为什么有些人一定要走?
为什么越想奋力留住
却越容易失去?
为什么你以为有些人是朋友
但却让你失望?
为什么你爱的人
不是爱你的人?
为什么我要如此依赖?
为什么我不能面对?
为什么要活在这个痛苦的世界?
为什么世界是如此冷漠?
爱在哪里?

可以对我好点么?
是别人的错,还是自己应该学会
坚强?


一个人的旅行
我希望快乐

why?
Sunday, December 20, 2009 ♥ 10:01 PM
was talking to yh the other day and she complained about how a teacher she likes (whom also like her back) suddenly start avoiding/ignoring her..when yh goes online,she'll go off and call her she also don't answer the phone.previously they were super close,the teacher always send yh home somemore!..so nice.but why suddenly the change?maybe liwenjuan was really rite?that teachers and student can never be friends?== but they were friends already!then suddenly...hate people who dao,at least give an explanation?basic courtesy right?.. yh even asked why she dao her!haha,but obviously she dao-ed the qn!zz why make friends with people and then leave them==.hmm..zhanglaoshi's still the best teacher/teacher-friend everrrr:D

I LOVE chocolate log cake!!:D christmas is the time to EAT~
didn't went to see pastor,ended up she was waiting for me,the whole day!..but i thought she said she'll contact me again for the time.so i was waiting and waiting,and her sms didn't come so i thought she was busy!she said she was sad for the whole week coz i didn't turn up..haha.so now i'm seeing her on wed,no more miscommunication:D
congratulations to the two persons on their holy baptism today!and pastor had to remind me again, for the ten thousandth time that i was one of the first that she baptised..hoho.i wanna serve i wanna serve!

this is a boring post..i realise i always have alot to WANT to blog about but when i actually come here to write,i've nothing..== most of the time i can't remember what happened.
oh a stupid cat scared me just now,stupidstupid cat.i hate catsss.


So you would come


Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come


It doesn't matter if you think you have nothing to give,or you are not perfect,God doesn't need anything from you,He has everything and He doesn't need you to be perfect;He just wants you back,as His precious child!~

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28


may people realise the true meaning of christmas and may souls be touched by your holy spirit.




(i realise more people are reading the blog than i know..)


there's a higher throne
Monday, December 14, 2009 ♥ 10:25 PM

not very nice pictures,but nice song..

it's the end of the year again..pastor's right,time to do a spring cleaning of the heart,soul and spirit.

yayness~
Sunday, December 13, 2009 ♥ 9:52 PM
blogging from new lappy:D:D~ actually it's my first. my com completely died..after about 7years!not bad le.
went for service today,after like so long..around four months.so happy to see everyone,especially pastor!missed her..she wanna see me tomorrow~ anyway glad that i went today.missed the lighting of the first 2 advent candles.help me revive the true meaning of christmas(:
finally cut my hair..hmm not too bad,tried a new hairdress that mommy's student recommended.but it's super super super layered:( so it looks damn short when i tie up,and no more french braids for me for awhile!:(((
actually not much to blog about,since i haven't done much...
that's it for now!
but before that..

live the true christmas spirit~


距离
Thursday, December 10, 2009 ♥ 2:10 PM
一直不想相信
距离产生美;
发现妈妈说得很对
应该保持距离
任何人
尤其是长辈
因为靠得太近
会不小心忘记
对他们应有的
晚辈对长辈的
尊敬

但那不是我
我没法控制
没法把自己
与周围的人
隔开
不明白为什么
要隔着一堵墙
人与人之间
不就是心与心
的交流么

从来不懂得把持尺度
最终只是自己难过
因为把心掏空交给别人
不代表别人也会一样

我不明白为什么
会这样
也许是我想太多
又或许
从一开始
就不应该
靠得太近

我是笨蛋
是个容易相信
容易被骗
容易依赖
容易胡思乱想
的大笨蛋


某人说的某句话:
“身体生病,其实是心病;心情舒畅,就不会生病”
在我这
得到了证实



好冷



(gosh accidentally posted this to class blog==)
(was my fb account hacked?:S)

Is it worth the price?
Tuesday, December 08, 2009 ♥ 4:40 PM

The guy from chingay called again and I “missed” it। But I thought can’t just drag it on like this, time to make my decision. So I called back to tell him I wanna quit, he tried to convince me and make me change my mind,but I told him I can’t commit…don’t sound too convincing also:/.i want to go…but. chingay is every year,Alevels is once in a life’s time(hopefully),the 10+ years of studying all for that one exam.what can I do?



It sucks when your results are lousy and you are bad at your studies।i hate it.



I’m afraid to sign up for OCIP, coz I was not sure if I’m gonna get promoted;

I’m afraid to go for camps and events,coz they take up too much time;

I’m afraid to sign up for work attachments,coz I know they will reject me for my results;

I’m afraid to find holiday work,coz I’m suppose to spend time revising;

I’m afraid to go out with friends and turned them down with lame excuses,coz I know mom won’t allow anyway,there no point even asking.i’m so sorry;

I’m afraid to commit my time,coz I can’t afford to neglect my studies।



In trying to do all that,I’m losing more than I can imagine;

Friends,opportunities,experiences………..i’m losing my life;

too much regrets;

I don’t know if I’m doing the right things;

When I look back one day,

Will I be thankful for the choices I made?

Will I ask myself, 值得吗?

容易担心的小孩子
Monday, December 07, 2009 ♥ 7:49 PM

whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy?

At least tell me?==







傻瓜 还是笨蛋:/












容易依赖的小孩

容易难过的小孩


after four years
Saturday, December 05, 2009 ♥ 4:27 PM

Gathering with yh and co yesterday!was really great to see everyone after so many years.most of us haven’t seen one another for 3,4 years. Went K with yh and qy at katong. After that the rest joined us for the most “wonderful” show at yh’s school(shall not name the school..haha).anyway the show was so interesting that we left before it ended. went to walk along some canal which yh claimed to be kallang river==,but still I think we had fun talking and laughing about all the stupid things we did in the past,really really stupid things.it felt like p6 days all over again. Really missed all of you.. hope the next gathering won’t be another four years away!

yh told me something that I’ve never known.i’m not sure if it’s better or not better to know,or it doesn’t make a different whether I know or not. But what she said about one party will sure “cool” before the other made me think of..us.I don’t know how to talk to her about it,at least not for now,but I really need to say it, she probably won’t see this anyway. I guess I’m the one who “cooled” first.i’m so damn mean.i’m just a stupid xi3 xin1 yan4 jiu4 person,when I made new friends in secsch,I neglected her,so much about BFF.i suck..so glad to see you yesterday, it’s strange how I don’t feel the distance,it seems like just yesterday before we met.we laughed and joked about the stupidest stuffs just like the old days,and we had so much memories together.now you have your friends and I have mine,though we do not talk so often or meet up now,besides going out with our moms,I guess you still have that very special place in my heart,coz you are really special to me.just want you to know that even if one day we’ve stopped talking and seeing each other, nothing will change coz u’ll always have a place in my heart.and I’m sorry for what I did in the past,I suck totally.

i missed u!



Why can’t everyone just be friends with their friends forever?why do friends have to come and go?










And why are you not talking to me le?..

who snores the loudest
Wednesday, December 02, 2009 ♥ 8:20 PM
went sleepover at mao's!went and came home within 24hours..haha.
met up with mao to rent movies which we only end up watching one of the two.then we bought fooood.and had to brave through a whole trail of cockroaches,dead and alive..screamed all the way from the ntuc to her house.after we went home,while waiting for the others,watched dance nite dvd!got goosebumps for the front part,coz we were grossed out..while after that the goosebumps were because the dances are super nice..haha.after that jiang and zhen came over and we had dinner.then finally fan came and we started on the horror movie,was so stupid,not scary at all.the second movie was p.s i love you,but there's no subtitles,so everyone lost interest and busy-ed themselves with the painting of their nails..and curling of hair.12am hansel and gretel was showing on TV,so we watched that and it was the only worth watching movie that night.some parts of the movie abit no link,but still it's super sweeeeet!fan KO-ed first before 12 and she snored.next was zhen then jiang.was totally surprised mao cheng1-ed for so long.i was super tired but cannot fall asleep so we started talking and she shared about her US trip and everything.we talked till 5.30am+! then we decided to get a little sleep coz zhen's waking up at 7.and mao fell asleep within 1min,not exaggerating at all,and she still say she won't fall asleep before me.all of them snoreeee except jiang and i.mao the loudest,next is zhen then fan.thanks to jiang for moving herself onto the floor,coz then we had more space on the mattress!:D by the time we woke up at 12.30pm,zhen and fan are already gone.and jiang played dance nite dvd again!faint~~

result slip
Monday, November 30, 2009 ♥ 10:29 PM
finally got back my grd8 result slip!out of the 3 pieces,failed 2 of them..haha.but the only one that passed was rather good,27/30,the examiner was really really kind.the piece that i feel badly about always score best among the 3,same for this...it was so lousy i don't even practise it much==hmm.for A1,he commented that i "set a quick pace for the piece and introduced some effective dynamic colours".yay!"the articulation often needed more precision and the flow needed more security for the music to sound confident",and i thought that was my most confident piece!== failed by one mark for this.C1,the best piece"you captured the mood of this well.in spite of a few slight slips the flourishes had a pleasing delicate quality and the final section was suitably ghost-like"...serious!i didn't know it was THAT wonderful!== the most hated piece~~the examiner's just too nice lahhh.B2,the longest piece and the only one i used score for,"perhaps the tempo here was too ambitious.there was some clear paragraph but the general flow was not secure enough to allow the performance to form convincingly.many stops and starts"...haha ok lor.i noe it was bad.scored lowest for this.sight-reading failed as usual..but i realise i passed for grd4 and 7!yay.anyway,for the additional comments part,he complimented me again for my C1!"well done for the excellent York Bowen!",excellent!wow!:D:D:D hahaha...i already forgot how to play it le..coz it's my most disliked piece,too lazy to play since exam's finished.shall play it tomorrow!:D by the way,this examiner had the worst handwriting among the 4 examiners i've seen..had a super hard time trying to see what he wrote...but still,thank him veryveyvery much for letting me pass!muacks!

dance
Sunday, November 29, 2009 ♥ 6:24 PM

the most anticipated dance during every practice,rehearsal and the final nite itself,this is something that always gives me goosebumps and make every strand of hair rise..never fail to touch me,dongtianlaile!




nycd syf09 item at youth talent concert.first time seeing this dance,well done juniors!superb techniques and ganjue!and very nice dui xings!i'm sososo sure that you all blew Nathan to the moon!i had goosebumps throughout the wholeeee dance!omg.was really really great!nycd<3

giving thanks
Thursday, November 26, 2009 ♥ 6:54 PM
Thank you Lord for all that you've done for us,nothing we do can repay you,for it is by grace that you took our sins and cleansed us with your holy blood.




Thank you Lord for my family
they are always behind me
in whatever i do
they love me even when i'm unlovely.
Thank you Lord for my teachers
they are always there
to guide me and lead me
like shepherds
and sometimes even going beyond their responsibilities as teachers.
Thank you Lord for my friends
the people i can't live without.



Thank you Lord for everything!


and happy thanksgiving!(:

blessings
Monday, November 23, 2009 ♥ 11:46 PM
was bored to death blog hopping..and saw one of wh's post,was really touched by his mama's actions and life.coz it reminded me once again,of the sacrifices my mama has made,for me,for dad,for the family.mama is a blessing from God,i don't blame dad for anything coz he's also a gift.but what mama has endured,overcome,sacrificed were way beyond the responsibility of a common mother.she gave up everything,everything for me.life may not be fair for her,but whatever challenges that went her way,she braved through all of them.nobody,not even me could understand the tremendous amount of stress,heartaches,uncertainties and all those things she went through.she's the bestest mother in the whole wide world.and i can't help feeling so blessed every time.just wanna say,mommy i love u(:

holiday work
♥ 10:42 PM
finally cleared my table after more than one month since promos. i realise there's a layer of dust on the papers/booklets/notes. and i just realise the econs notes are for self reading!and there's group work?!!?which include presentation next year?!?!please lah i had enough of pw....:((
just deleted all pw related emails from my inbox..previously i thought i would feel sooooo good after deleting all those but the moment i clicked on "delete",a sense of hmm sadness actually came over me..well i guess yh was right,it was a once-in-a-lifetime experience and it has left its marks.

live out the xmas spirit!
♥ 8:57 PM
went food fair with charming...thank you for ur wonderful suggestion!was a total waste of time and money!haha.all aunties and all they have were soya sauce,soya milk,coffee,chicken..etcetc.so we left since we were lazy to find other halls.
charm made me waste 45cents,we got into the mrt station and came out==.but thanks for sponsoring me $1 for my shoes!!!:D:D
anyway,we went movie instead.a christmas carol!yay.now it really feel like xmas!wish it comes faster!:D xmas is the season of giving and love(: so live out the christmas spirit!
was freezing to death during the movie,coz both of us didn't bring jackets since we didn't expect to watch a movie.and throughout the whole thing i needed to go to the looooo but didn't wanna miss any part of the movie..so i eduuuuured!
went shopping and bought new shoes!yay loves~ wallet totally empty now,left with 45cents.
feels good walking on the streets after being cooped up at home for a whole week.
shall start muuuuuugging tmr!:D
call me a mugger!

a nice song recommended by chingman!


Why? Why are You still here with me?
Didn’t You see what I’ve done?
In my shame I want to run,
And hide myself.
Yeah, but it’s here I see the truth,
I don’t deserve You.

But I need You to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from You this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me.
I just never saw how You
Could cherish me.

Cause you’re a God who has all things,
And still You want me.

And I need You to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from You this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
Yeah, ye-ea-eah

Your love makes me forget what I have been.
Your love makes me see who I really am.
Your love makes me forget what I have been, oh-oh.

And I need You to love me, yeah
I need You to love me, ye-ea-eah!
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me, yeah

I need You to…
oh oh oh oh eo (x4)
Love me, love me, yah


and another powerful song by them,reminding us of the fact that we are never alone,for our Heavenly Father would never forsake us.


I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance, yeah
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

We cannot separate, you're part of me
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen, yeah

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

hmm
Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ♥ 10:10 PM
can't stand how easily i get attached to people.
during sec1 camp,the day at downtown east(ist?) with the "instructor",made me wanna cry when we were leaving.
cried like some mad person at the end of OBS,thought i'll miss andy so much when i only knew him for 5 days,it was so hysterical the boatman kept giving me weird looks.
cried on the bus(==) when qiulaoshi was leaving when i've just know her for a few months.
cried when my attachment at IBM ended,the people were so nice and i just thought i'll never ever see them again.it was so stupid coz after that i visited and met up with buddy sharonjiejie many times..can't understand why i cried==,so embarrassing.
cried as if it's the end of the world when fudan immersion was ending and my buddy and i have to be separated.i thought i'm gonna die== and we only got to know each other for a few days.
..
...

nevertheless,i lived through all those separations and partings...
and though many times it's hard for me and i hate feeling so nostalgic after everything that ends, i still thank God for making me the way i am, it's my gift(:




and now i realise, i'm starting to get so attached to u.. but still,nothing lasts forever

OP
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ♥ 4:33 PM
and everything's over now.

nervousness killed it all.
我不甘心!
could have done sooo sooo sooo much better!i didn't memorize 70+ times for that kind of outcome!keep forgetting my script,and couldn't recover in time coz i blanked out!and i've no slides to refer to,i was all on my own!many parts were cut off,my speech probably lasted for only about 3min?:( nervousness killed it all!was so nervous it caused me a headache which still hasn't recovered till now.what's the big deal?!it's just a presentation,something i've done like millions of times before!why was i even more nervous than piano exam?which is suppose to be more scary since it's solo.and obviously i've done much more presentations than piano exams!so why was i more nervous for op==.maybe one difference is that piano examiners are all smiling and nice and kind coz they are suppose to make candidates feel at ease and not being nervous since it's super important to play well.i thought that should be the way in any exam or competition or such!instead op assessors are instructed NOT to smile==..i wonder what's the purpose?
previously i thought i just want to get it over and done with asap and after today,i'll be the happiest person on earth!i thought i'm mad but seriously,if given a chance,i would want to present my part all over again.因为我不甘心。成绩不是最重要的,重要的是我要做到我的最好,但它已成为一个永远的遗憾...


thanks mao for coming all the way to school so early in the morning just to deliver banana to me to calm my nerves.thanks for being there:D..hehe

now that everything's over..feels empty,coz all those hecticness and craziness from having something to chiong for all the time have ended.and end of op/pw officially ended our JC1 school life...the year flew by.

stop it
Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ♥ 5:33 PM
不值得 不值得 不值得
不值得 我落泪